im sitting here drinking that 12 year old label
blowing out smoke, ashes all over the table
thoughts floating the week’s incomprehensible
it hurts so bad i thought I was indestructible
how did I fall so low when I was going with the flow
grazed to nothing a year after 911 like ground zero
I looked to you to save me like heroes
Illusion of closeness makes me wanna get high on doses
In and out of conscious its hard to even try to focus
Do you think its time to question our conscience
The world is not my stage cos
the void is filling up with rage
im not an animal you think you can cage
tired of reading between the lines
afraid of what I’d find when I flip the page

but I have my friends to thank for keeping me sane
eh la eh la eh la eh la like rihanna in the rain
we all drenched wet situation we all the same
we’re here for you together
no one stands alone forever
sadness doesn’t last forever
we stand by you remember
walking over this puddle hand in hand together


i know you guys wil relate well to this, PQ, neng , ryna, me.
and i hope it inspires you to move on / be strong.
im here.

jump start my heart your words make my heart thumping
electrical impulses surge and my nerves jumping
waiting in anticipation has got me badly shaking
yes you got me excited and there is no faking
it was dark but now I see the lights flashing
uncontrollable emotions like cars crashing
but I know you are definitely worth the waiting
im euphoric but there is no use if im the only one feeling it
things should be settled but I know its more than skin deep
working your way up being buried six feet deep
you’re bothered by your past
and you want to end it fast
final closure is a must
plus you have much to do and stuff
hush..let me tell you how you’re luscious and luxes
yesterday I asked if we could chill
And your reply made king of the hill
Feels like im high yet I don pop pills
Making me stir in the still of the night
Yet I know it might still be too soon
Butterfly not ready to bloom
still in your cocoon
let me know soon

can we chill

There are so many things that I’d do to get to you
Things I’d give to have you by my side, boo
Im thinking of things I don’t usually do,
you make me a love fool
too many things to say but words don’t express it well,
I maybe delusional from getting high on doses
Euphoric for the illusion of closeness
You invoke strong emotions unconsciously
And when I sleep you appear to me subconsciously
It makes me write and I cant stop willingly
From the experience that I encountered
And I Can’t stop myself from thinking
I feel paranoia manifesting
Sitting here alone chills to my bone
Hoping you could jus pick up the phone
To drop a text to tell me yr day or just a simple hello
Offering to buy you dinner but you’ve always got plans
And these times I just don understand
But im trying and
If you were to fall hold my hand
Like a child taking swim lessons as a beginner
I pray to him - make me a winner
the reply never comes
now im sitting in a purgatory suffering like a sinner
cause God thinks im a non believer
so many questions to ask
but it seems like ure wearing a mask
expressionless even if the sky’s downcast
never changing like it’s a must

definite there are reasons and i need to know

at least show me that there isn't a thing
if you could jus open yr arms to hug me and I aint worried bout a damn thing

unconditional love

Damn this girl is so damn fine
the kind that never leaves your mind
nervous around her every time
yet I wanna see her every day
But I’m kept at bay to my dismay
When we’re out I jus wan her to stay
Constantly checking the phone for a text
If it was in letters it probably be in thousand stacks
When there’s no reply i cant relax
I’d try all means maybe even fax
She controls and affects my mood
when she’s sad we turn to food
that explains the chubby cheeks
if she’s hurt then I bleed
makes me smile when Im with her
cant even be compared to diamonds or pearls
cos she the only one in the world

you got me so hypnotise
I cant get my eyes off you
im jus so mesmerized
when you do wat you do
so do wat you do

Trying to calm my mind, take my time
But its like a crime cos I cant think straight
You got my mind racing and that’s what im afraid
Truth is you got my mind in such a weird state
When you smile it makes my day
Jus so you know I can do this all day
Just to make you smile that captivating smile in every way
i want to take it slow i don’t wanna rush
But every time I think bout you I get that blood rush
to my cheeks and it creates a big red blush
I can tell its not a crush nor infatuation
There’s no explanation to describe how I feel or say
One wrong step and I might give it all away
I’ll slow down the pace
But I can’t help in this case
Cos the shapeless smoke forms your face
And all I wanna do is smoke
You sweet like coke but you prefer pepsi
Im sorry if im coming on too strong, d
For now im gonna SL double E P

Never will I forget the first night that I saw you there
Expressionless face with that real icy cold stare
I was starting out and you were beside without a care
It was dark but I knew you look good in what you wear
Something bout you Hoping I could see you everywhere
You keep me up like that energy drink Milo
Warms me up when the temperature outside’s freezing cold
Happy yet distracting its something you should know
The times that I don’t I see you I hear lil john say get low
We started talking surprised bout the whole conversation
Its That energy that made me last through the whole night
Work was tough but you were there and it motivates

me saying my my my my my my my
Girl you look good tonight.

Think you should know by now how I feel bout you
If there was a scale of 1 to 5, girl you a 10
Addicted like psychological drugs
you ease this emotions
you affect physiological outcome increasing doses to curb the emotions
saying its mutual and you don’t want tings to be ruin
there’s this longing of being closer than frequent text message
things seem fine but theres this underlying cause of concern
that needs your attention and resolution
listening to I gotta have her but
seems like brick and lace saying never never
jus a call and I’ll be right where you want me to be

if you wanna come ride than lets ride
if you wanna go smoke than lets smoke
if you wanna go chill than lets chill
I’ve been thinking bout you.